Forgiveness...............I do forgive you. I love you, yet I have not wanted to love you for over 46 years, yet I have loved you.
I have forgiven you. You taught me many things. You showed how to be many things. The reason that caused the need for forgiveness taught many things also.
I just heard last night, thru a text, that you are terminal with about 3 weeks to live. I forgive you for all your trespasses against me. I resolve you for any guilt you may carry for what you did to me. May you go peacefully and in peace.
I am sorry but I will not be calling nor will I be there. It is something that is hard for me to deal with, within me. Not reaching out. Not being there. All these years of cutting out my whole family has been hard to deal with.
I am sorry you are suffering as you are. I am sorry that you are in so much pain. I am sorry that I can not bring myself to be there. May your soul find the peace it never was able to have here.